A letter from Ludwig Van Beethoven to his Immortal Beloved. I just thought it was really, really beautiful.

Even in bed my ideas yearn towards you, my Immortal Beloved, here and there joyfully, then again sadly, awaiting from Fate, whether it will listen to us. I can only live, either altogether with you or not at all. Yes, I have determined to wander about for so long far away, until I can fly into your arms and call myself quite at home with you, can send my soul enveloped by yours into the realm of spirits – yes, I regret, it must be. 

You will get over it all the more as you know my faithfulness to you; never another one can own my heart, never – never! O God, why must one go away from what one loves so, and yet my life in W. as it is now is a miserable life. Your love made me the happiest and unhappiest at the same time. At my actual age I should need some continuity, sameness of life – can that exist under our circumstances? Angel, I just hear that the post goes out every day – and must close therefore, so that you get the letter at once. Be calm – love me – to-day – yesterday.

What longing in tears for you – You – my Life – my All – farewell. Oh, go on loving me – never doubt the faithfullest heart

Of your beloved

L

Ever thine.
Ever mine.
Ever ours.

I am not a perfect girl. My hair doesn't always stay in place and the occasional zit likes to burst out. I am pretty clumsy and sometimes I have a broken heart and I cry for the silliest reasons. I never know who or what to believe and I don't follow any of those cool fad diets. 

But guess what, life isn't all that bad from out here. Would you believe me if I told you that certain people choose to look past those imperfections and love you for exactly who you are? No pretense, no drama, no foundation mousse, no mascara. That's when you begin to love your life for you have found a true friend. Somebody who you can talk to until the wee hours of midnight, call them up at ungodly hours just to tell them that a lizard won't stop staring at you from outside your window.

You know what's best? I realized I have people in my life who fit exactly into that frame. Underestimated the power of love didn't I? Silly me, to even think that love exists in a singular form. What I feel right now cannot be anything else. I am happy, and I wake up every morning under the warm sun and guess what? It doesn't hurt my eyes. Life is good, and I am as happy as I could be.

God alone knows how long it'll take to leave the past right here and move on. But as of now, I can feel nothing. Though occasionally, my thoughts wander over to what I have lost and how things have changed and to what next, I know for a fact nobody can take this moment away from me. 

For as long as I have them, It doesn't matter because whatever is going to be in store for me, is going to be MUCH more than just worthwhile.

Life plays funny games, you know. First it takes away every little thing that's close to your heart and makes you helpless. Remember when all I did was lie down locked up in my room and wake up every morning to soggy eyes and a tear soaked pillow? When I had lost all faith in myself, people, and even God. When I had lost all sense of direction. 

 Well guess what, I found the golden compass.

Like I said, funny business, this life. But for once, I am not complaining =] After all, we lives in ze Republic of Chocolate!

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